A conversation that I will keep forever... and more.

Conversation- I will refrain from starting from the beginning, instead more toward the middle.

"You have a sun"

and my reply was "Son? oh yes, I have three. I have told you about them."

"No you have a sun inside of you."

"Excuse me? I think you are confusing me with someone else. I cannot have anymore children, at least not biologically"

and here is where I will not directly quote, because I cannot remember every word. He worded it much more beaufifully than my memory will be able to recall...

           No, please listen carefully. Close your eyes and listen with your ears child. Listen with you heart.Take in this. You are a brightonw. You bring light to those around you. Some are blinded by your rays, and otherss choose run from it. Others will fallin love with your light, they will hold onto it and choose to never let go. These are the people who have been living in the dark. These are the people who hold on because they fear returning to the dark where they used to live. 

So, of course, I shake my head, which I am not holding in my hands. This man is crazy,This man has known me less than two weeks. This man is wise, this man has talent. This man should not be saying these things about this crazy American woman who is now barefoot covered in mud sitting by his side.

I say to him..." If what you are saying is true SO, I feel as if I have been cursed."

his reply went something like this....

             It is not a curse. You say tell me you are a giver, you tell me you have the pateince of a man named Job, you tell me you are too nice to those in need, you open your heart to me. What you are telling me is you feel this need to give your light away. Be cautious my child. When you give your light away you become less bright, less free, and more dark. You have a sun. Shine on those you love You can shine your light on those, you can shine your light, but do so without giving it to them to keep. You say you dance, I see the sun when you dance. Let others dance with you. Shine your light then. Still do not give it to them. 

 You love the night because you hold the light. You search for the storm and still you are the sun who shines through the clouds. 

   You wont accept your beauty, you will not be comfortable hearing you are this. That the sun is inside of you.

Child, you have the sun. I saw the sun before I even saw you approaching. You must accept this. Be free, be the sun. Your flowers will not bloom without you. Your love will wilt, as will the love of others. Love yourself like you love the sun. Celebrate yourself like you celebrate the sun. Others see your sun and they celebrate you. Others feel your sun and they feel you. Now you must do the same.

I left it at that, with tears in my eyes. 

I will return to that Island. I will return to SO.